going to lose 140lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK so here it is for all that cares to see>>>i kinda cant believe that i am posting this here on my blog but i kinda feel like i need to!today i am 289lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! holy crud that is way too close to 300!!! i never in one million years thought that i would be that BIG, this is by far the biggest i have ever ever been in my entire life. For myself, my husband, and my children i can not be this any more! i HAVE to lose this weight else i will end up just like my Mother and dead at 45. I do not think that is in the cards for me as that is not what i want for me or my family! so i decided yesterday that to start ( I'm going to start slow so i stick with it) i am going to walk everyday now i am going to shoot for 30min a day but some days i might not get that all in and that is OK. I just HAVE to get up and at least go out and walk something. So yesterday it was really cold 22 outside but i did it. as i started to get ready Zebediah begged and begged to go so i gave in. Needless to say this was not a great walk, walking with a six year old and a dog in a coat that he doesn't want to be wearing (will post pictures later) but we logged in 12 min. i know NOTHING wonderful but it was more then i normally do. Today i went out and walked 35 min. I know that this is again not HUGE but they are steps in the right direction. I'm excited!!!!!!!!!! But i am scared! I am going to really lose the weight this time. And it might come off really slow but that is OK. It is going to come off. I will keep ya ( who ever ya is) posted. I am not changing my eating habits as of yet, but i will. i just need to get a hold on the walking thing first. I am hoping to turn this into a running thing. I hope to get a joy for running. Zebediah has decided that i get to have every other day to myself ad the other days we are going to go together. that will still be nice!